Whole wheat pancaked & Blueberry Syrup

Breakfast...one of my favorites, yet undercooked. Today I made whole wheat pancakes and syrup...

Easy....

Now, I grind my own flour. Which sounds oh so hard, earthy...but it's NOT!!! The same amount of time it takes for you to go get your flour and measure...I go to my bucket, measure the kernels and I have flour.
But you DON'T have to....

3 cups  wheat flour
1t. Salt
1t. Baking soda
2 1/2 t. Baking powder
1/3 c. Oil (I use EVOO)
4 eggs
3-4 c. Milk....until pancake mixture!!

Mix dry. Mix wet. Add together. Cook and top with your desire.

I made Blueberry Syrup. SUPER easy.
4 c. Blueberries...(I use frozen)
1/2 c. Honey
1/4 c. Orange Juice
2 T. Cornstarch
1/4 c. Water

Bring berries, honey & orange juice to boil. Simmer 1 minute. Dissolve cornstarch in cold water and add to syrup. Simmer until how thick you like.

Enjoy!!!

Lost and Found!!!!

Cooking is just a relaxing thing for me. Some people run, some sew, some read, I cook. I lost for some time!!! But I believe it is FOUND!!!!
When we started Carmyn's therapy schedule at her young age of 9 months old, my spare time quickly became a taxi cab of to and fro for her. This schedule only multiplied with her diagnosis. Then the pregnancy of twins came, their birth and taking a stab at homeschooling our eldest. Needless to say for the span of 3 full years, the drive-thru became our best friend. Our local Taco Bell KNOWS US WELL!!!! They know our voice...HA!! I'd say we have eaten there a tad bit too much.
So, I have slowly started making dinners again. And good dinners if I say so myself. I am trying to incorporate health, fresh foods with LOTS of comfort. Comfort to me is a cozy feeling that gives you a sense of home, security and love!!!
So, I cook!!! Today I am making spaghetti sauce. I will be able to divide this into 3 meals!! HUGE PLUS on a night I just need a quick yummy meal!! Tonight we'll have a yummy comforting meal on this rainy cool day!!

Having A Moment

I am having a moment. Just to vent a little. Pray a little. Talk a little. So, we going to the beach. It's a long drive for the children. I understand that. They are tired, hungry, antsy and irritable. So, we take the kids down to the beach. Colton LOVES IT!!! As expected!! I am happy for him!!!! Carmyn LOVES it, but doesn't understand danger at ALL!!! Completely scoots straight in to the water and gets rolled several times. A typical child would learn the lesson after a few hits. But not her. She gets up dazed and confused. Turns and goes for more. Then there is the twins. Aubrey and Addyson HATES it. They cry and scream the whole time. They do NOT like the sand and FORGET the water rolling of them and it breaks on the coastline. So I decide to take the girls back to the room. HA, on the way, Carmyn poops. UGH!! One thing truly sets me on edge. I tell her not to touch, BUT that was WISHFUL thinking. UGH!!! Ont he girls she smears. We get back to the room. ALL 3 are crying. Littles are screaming. I mean, REALLY??? REALLY???? REALLY?? These are the moments I HAVE to breathe and pray!! Breathe and pray!!! God, PLEASE make this true. We are so close to a cure!! PLEASE!!!!!

All the girls are asleep. Boys out to get dinner. Me, breathing and praying!!!

Lord, I look out and I see Your creation. Your majestic wonder. Your infinite power and wonder. You've healed the blind, the lame, the possessed, diseased and dead. I KNOW you can heal Carmyn too. Lord, we are close. Science is coming close. Please Lord, bless this research!! Open this pavement and allow the Angels to be healed. TO talk!!! TO reason!! To have control over motor!! TO have cognitive ability. Lord, give Carmyn a future to share her faith and talents with others. Help her to fully be able to engaged in life and with us. Help seizures to be controlled!! Thank you sweet Lord for allowing me as always, to vent!!! I LOVE you Father! Amen!!!

Lately

I love blogging!! I really do. Because I have a million thoughts I would just like to get out. But as I have said before, life just happens and I don't end up making the time. I would love to say I am going to change and make the effort, but that would be a lie. Not an intentional one, but all the same I know myself.

I have been doing school for the past 6 weeks now with Colton. 1st grade!!! He's doing greou at. I am a workbook kind of gal. I WISH I was more carefree and Charlotte Mason kind of mom, but I am just not!!! Maybe someday. I envy those moms. The nature hike, classical music, hands-on project mommas. I am just textbook, check off the list, accomplish the main goal kind of mom. I struggle with this a bit, but you know what???? Colton works that way. He likes to have those subjects laid out and ready!!!He's very straight forward. So we work well together. We are currently using Rod & Staff, which I ADORE!!! And using Horizon. I like our school work!!!

I have been meaning to get Carmyn around to a lesson plan. I just haven't gotten to it yet. Her school will look a LOT different. Because of her disability, lack of speech, lack of attention span and motor skills, her school will be all about choices. I ask a question and she responds by pointing. SO it I could get my act together, she will have 30 minutes carved out for just her!!

Then my Littles. Dear Aubry & Addyson. They are just so sweet. I am enjoying them so much. With Colton being the first, I think I took the little moments for granted. Just plunged through with the milestones with a check list. Carmyn had obvious issues. These girls, AAAWWWWWWWW!!!!! Can you hearing me singing??? Every little milestone, trick, smile, laugh and even fits are just wonderful to me!! Amazing!! A blessing!!!

I am not sure where our future will take us. But I look forward to the journey!!!

GIVE AWAY!!!

Jenn @ Muchkin Land Designs is doing a blog make over give away and more. This is her two year anniversary in business. Go on over and see what she's offering!!!

Too hot for suits!!! Too cute!!

Trusting In Him

Who are those you admire? Those Christian influences you look up to and want to emulate? That woman that shows you how to be a friend, how to be a mom, host, be gracious, be kind, a teacher and show and be the love of Christ!! Oh how lovely they are. It's even scriptural to have those women in our lives. Titus speaks of this. Especially for those of us that did not grow up in the church or have that kind of example, it's so important. And we need these people!!!

I try to be cautious of this though. For a few reasons.
One is comparison. A friend put it like this. Comparison is the death of contentment!!! WOW!!! I love this and oh how true it is! First I admire, then quickly it becomes __________________________. Fill in the blank. I am not as pretty, not as holy, not as knowledgeable, not as talented, not as great homeschooler, don't keep a lovely home,  marriage isn't as great, husband isn't as good, not a good parent or godly. Oh the list can go pon and on. Where does this lead? Self destruction. Which can manifest in a lot of different ways.
I have done this in my life and I always end up feeling awful about myself.

Secondly, the disappointment. No matter how great the person, you'll be disappointed. Just human nature.  We put these people in an unreachable position, which they do not belong. I've been disappointed countless times. Thinking each time would be different. Because they are "so good " "so godly" "so knowledgeable "....well maybe? Maybe not?

So, I truly try to listen and speak to God. Find His truths!!! I'm never disappointed!! And the relationships are better because I have to expectations!!! I just treat the time as a gift, and/ or lesson!!