Having A Moment

I am having a moment. Just to vent a little. Pray a little. Talk a little. So, we going to the beach. It's a long drive for the children. I understand that. They are tired, hungry, antsy and irritable. So, we take the kids down to the beach. Colton LOVES IT!!! As expected!! I am happy for him!!!! Carmyn LOVES it, but doesn't understand danger at ALL!!! Completely scoots straight in to the water and gets rolled several times. A typical child would learn the lesson after a few hits. But not her. She gets up dazed and confused. Turns and goes for more. Then there is the twins. Aubrey and Addyson HATES it. They cry and scream the whole time. They do NOT like the sand and FORGET the water rolling of them and it breaks on the coastline. So I decide to take the girls back to the room. HA, on the way, Carmyn poops. UGH!! One thing truly sets me on edge. I tell her not to touch, BUT that was WISHFUL thinking. UGH!!! Ont he girls she smears. We get back to the room. ALL 3 are crying. Littles are screaming. I mean, REALLY??? REALLY???? REALLY?? These are the moments I HAVE to breathe and pray!! Breathe and pray!!! God, PLEASE make this true. We are so close to a cure!! PLEASE!!!!!

All the girls are asleep. Boys out to get dinner. Me, breathing and praying!!!

Lord, I look out and I see Your creation. Your majestic wonder. Your infinite power and wonder. You've healed the blind, the lame, the possessed, diseased and dead. I KNOW you can heal Carmyn too. Lord, we are close. Science is coming close. Please Lord, bless this research!! Open this pavement and allow the Angels to be healed. TO talk!!! TO reason!! To have control over motor!! TO have cognitive ability. Lord, give Carmyn a future to share her faith and talents with others. Help her to fully be able to engaged in life and with us. Help seizures to be controlled!! Thank you sweet Lord for allowing me as always, to vent!!! I LOVE you Father! Amen!!!